Saturday, February 23, 2013

I am woman

I am woman, hear me roar
In numbers too big to ignore
And I know too much to go back and pretend
'Cause I've heard it all before
And I've been down there on the floor
No one's ever gonna keep me down again

Oh yes, I am wise
But it's wisdom born of pain
Yes, I've paid the price
But look how much I gained
If I have to
I can do anything
I am strong
I am invincible
I am woman

You can bend but never break me
'Cause it only serves to make me
More determined to achieve my final goal
And I come back even stronger
Not a novice any longer
'Cause you've deepened the conviction in my soul

I am woman watch me grow
See me standing toe to toe
As I spread my lovin' arms across the land

I am woman

(Helen Reddy and Ray Burton)

Friday, February 1, 2013

Yes!! Make me some beeswax candles!

Last night I was busy making a batch of my own home made beeswax candles.  I love making candles, it's such a relaxing experience and especially beeswax candles because they smell so good!

I'm so lucky to have a beekeeper shop just few houses down the road.  They produce the most delicious honey and many other bee and maple related products.  I even get my moisturizer and beeswax cream from them.  Of course they also have oodles of beautiful and aromatic beeswax which I use to make my candles.

First, I have to break up the beeswax and start melting it.  It really takes a long time so that's the first thing I do.  The best way to melt beeswax is to stick a glass with beeswax into a boiling water.  You should never melt beeswax directly.  Make sure that whatever you choose to melt your beeswax in is something dedicated for just that purpose.  I bought a large measuring glass (because it has a spout) in the thrift store and as the big pot I'm using an old camping pot which is not needed anymore.

That wooden stick you see is to stop the glass from dancing around in the pot.  It can get pretty noisy sometimes!

What else is needed... containers to pour the candles into, wicks and something to attach the wicks to.  I'm making the tealight candles and some votive.  For tealights I'm using the actual tealight containers which I saved the last time I bought tealights at the store.  They are so easy to clean out and save for projects just like this one.  For votive candles I bought containers in the crafts store.

To hold the wicks I'm using little washers which I bought at the hardware store.  I tie the wick to the washer and try to push it upward.  For the wicks I bought hemp cord at the local craft store.

When some of the wax has melted, I grab my ready made wicks and dip them into the wax.  I then position them straight up and in the middle of the the container as much as I can.

After all the wax has melted in the pot, I wait a little while until I can see it starting to cool a bit.  I just want to see a bit of cooling wax skimming along the sides of the glass.  The reason for that is that if the wax is too hot it might stick to the sides of the candle containers.  That wouldn't be a problem with tealights since I don't take them out of the forms but it could be a problem with votive candles.

Oops.. couple of them are not perfectly in the middle.. oh well.. it happens ;)

Since votive candles are a bit bigger than tealights, it's more difficult to make the wick stay straight up.  For that, I use toothpicks to wrap the wicks and position them straight in the middle of the container.  Tealights are not a problem because it's easy to make a wick this short stand straight up.

When the poured wax is cold to the touch I remove the votive candles from their containers and trim the wicks on all the candles.  To remove the candles I gently tap the bottom of the container on the table.  That loosens candle enough to pop out. This has been a blast!!  :)

 Sometimes I also make large pillar candles.  I didn't do that last night because I already have some from last time I made some.  I love the drip look.

And last but not least... Do you know where the name tealight candle came from?  These little candles have been used in teapot warmers to keep the tea nice and hot.  This is the one that I have:

The tealight is in the middle warming up my tea


Sunday, January 27, 2013

The Kitties in My Space

I love cats. Live cats and not so live cats like cat sculptures, cat art, etc.  That's why when I go to my favorite thrift shop I always check the shelves for interesting cat trinkets and curiosities.   Every once in a while I happen to pick up something and I usually stick it in my home office.

Beautiful wooden sculpture, my favorite.

Ceramic cat trio.  I saw these guys sitting on the shelf and just couldn't pass them by.

Ceramic Bastet.  My office would not be whole without an Egyptian Feline Goddess .  One of must haves of mine.

There is even a spooky cat on my monitor... couldn't resist.

And the biggest cat curiosity in my home office is of course Hercules, my two year old cat who just loves jumping up on the back rest of my chair and rest there.  Sometimes I have my headphones on and he just freaks me out when he does that... but I find it so adorable that he just gets away with it. :) 

Yes, there was once a time when he lost balance and was hanging by his claws off the back.  Too bad I didn't get a picture of that.


Friday, January 25, 2013

A New Cool Guy guards my Post It Notes

I was going to write about something else as my first post hiatus blog entry, but then something awesome happened today at my local thrift store and I just had to share it.

I think I mentioned it somewhere already, I love Gargoyles.  I have two in front of my front door and several scattered around the house, mostly in my office.

Today I walked into the shop and there it was, sitting on the shelf looking as cool as a cucumber.  At first I didn't realize the functionality.  Something was missing... Was it a coaster holder but coasters were missing?  I didn't want to put it away... Gargoyle was way to awesome...

And then the epiphany.  Post It holder!!

Yes... I have a cool dude guarding my Post Its now.  They should be safe from now on.

Thursday, January 24, 2013


After a year of hiatus, I've decided to resurrect this blog for couple of reasons, one of which being that I miss it.  This blog has been a lot of fun and I am not ready to give up on it just yet.  It's my outlet for all things dark and mysterious, it represents the side of me which is important and special and one that not many people understand.

Going forward I will focus less on the fashion and more on the overall life of gothy personality.  This is how this blog originally start out but then fashion kind of took over.  I want to to take that back.  I will talk about books, movies, decorations and other pleasurable things that a woman with the darker side might enjoy.

I will see you soon!


Wednesday, December 21, 2011

Blessed Yule to All that Celebrate!

I want to send warmest, heart filled blessings to all those that celebrate Yule / Winter Solstice.  May you and your family enjoy this wonderful time of the year.  Since I come from mostly Roman Catholic family, we celebrate Christmas every year as a family tradition, but I myself also celebrate Yule.

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

Holiday Tree

Past weekend my family and I went out to get our holiday tree.  Every year we go to the local tree farm and walk around until we find the right one.  Well, actually to be honest, we walk until I find the tree that speaks to me, lol.  My kids and husband usually make fun of me and know that the trip might be a long one and that they will probably find ten other trees they like before I pick the one that connects with me. This year was no different.

We set out in the early afternoon hours last Saturday.  It was the coldest day of the week so we had to layer up. I chose to wear my super warm and comfortable winter boots which are in no way gothy but kept my feet warm and I had no problems climbing over fallen trees, up small hills etc.  My husband bought these boots for me few years back as part of my snowmobiling outfit.  They are designed to keep feet warm even at -40 Celsius.  I've been thinking lately to look for something to decorate these boots and disguise their rather sporty look.  Some black furry boot covers of sorts maybe?

The tree looks very short and fat but it's an illusion because this is a big truck.  By the time the tree was in its stand with the star on the top it was almost at the ceiling.  We actually had to cut the bottom a bit.

I refused to participate in the usual holiday decor shopping mania this year and instead decided we needed more  hand made, natural decorations.  Earlier this fall my little girl and I went out and gathered some nice pine cones in thought of painting them and hanging them on the tree.

We also hanged some apples, cinnamon sticks, candy canes and with some plain bulbs and craft supplies we made some funny creatures for the tree.


Cinnamon sticks tied with festive ribbon

My daughter's pine cone hanging on the tree

I don't know what he is but he is adorable! :D

The family tree in it's full glory.  My little girl already put some presents under. :)
While we were out looking for a family tree, my little girl picked up a little wee tree to put up in her room.  It's still in the ground and in the spring we plan to plant it in our garden.

My little girl's tree.